Well, well, well… what’s this? A new post? It’s been FAR too long since the last post.
Oh, the reasons are many and varied but needless to say the last couple of months have been a nightmare in terms of preparing for this run. I’ve been ill, exhausted, run off my feet, eaten too much, stressed and depressed all at various times since my last post. I’ve also ‘started again’ more than once!
Well, wow the new year is here I’m panicking about the run big style. I’m way off target fitness wise and we still haven’t agreed on a route despite agreeing that we would get it sorted before Christmas.
After putting it off too long, I went out for a run on Sunday and got only a couple of miles before feeling sick. I think it was a combination of stress, fear, worry and too much food but I couldn’t go on. I stopped, feeling like I was going to vomit. I sat down on a wall and cried. If the rest of the team were there I would have told them I was dropping out. I couldn’t do it. I’ve tried. And failed. It was just too hard. At every turn events seemed to conspire to stop me. I was defeated.
To rub salt into the wound the park was full of runners. Everywhere I looked I could see people running and enjoying themselves. I wanted to punch them all!
I sat on that wall for what seemed like an age. In the end I got up and walked home. On the way home, I was praying and things got better. A plan started unfolding. I could do this. It would be hard, yes and it would require sacrifice but I would do it. I had a good conversation with myself and with God and by the time I was at the end of the park I was ready to start again!
So, this week is another ‘start again’ week. Hopefully it’s the last one but already my plans to run are under attack. This morning my eldest child was off school, unable to weight-bear on his right leg. His knee was knocked playing football a while ago and hurt a bit at the time, but nothing serious. Last night he was complaining it hurt and this morning he couldn’t walk. No school for him today and no running for me. I’ll go out tomorrow instead…
Keep up with the running kit! You can do it! It’s going to be such a big challenge but it will be so worth it in the end!
Thanks Kim! It’s been horrible over Christmas. So many things get in the way.
Good to hear that you’re doing the Sheffield Half Marathon with Karen. How’s your running going?